Feast or Famine

I have learned something about myself. I am not a good dieter. LOL, I'm sure that doesn't surprise you, but I don't mean it in the traditional way. Obviously I am not good at sticking to a diet. After awhile I get completely frustrated and bored with it, especially since a normal diet does not help me at all because of PCOS. What I really mean though, is that it's an all or nothing thing with me.

After getting up to 296 pounds I finally started taking Metformin. For awhile it wasn't doing any good at all, other than making me not feel too good. But I stuck with it and got my dose doubled. (Doc wanted to triple it but you have to take it with food and I cannot eat 3 meals a day!) Well, the weight has started to go down and for about a week I was losing about a pound every two days. Unlike most people who would be excited about that I just started stressing. You see, if I can lose 1 pound in two days, something in my brain thinks if I eat a bit less I can lose a pound in ONE day. And if I can lose a pound a day, why not TWO pounds a day, etc...

I think my head is back on track now, at least FOR now but I have to be so careful. I don't want to slip into bulimic thinking, or go the other way and give up because I'm not losing as fast as I'd like to.

On a totally different note,

I HAVE A JOB!!!!! After 6 years of going back and forth to Canada and working there...after not being allowed to work in the United States...I finally have my Green Card, SSN, and a job. I've even got my first paycheck, LMAO. I got a check for $25.85 for 3 hours worth of training and orientation. I have never been so proud of such a small amount. My "real" paychecks start at the end of next week, but this one was special. I even paid a teeny tiny bit of tax, lol.

Immigration and more

Hi everyone! I am finally done with my immigration interview. I can't believe it was only about 5 minutes! 6 years to wait for it and then when it finally came it was over with so quickly. It looks like everything is going to be okay. (big sigh of relief) I have to have another medical done, which sucks because I have to pay $175 but thanks to a special person I know it isn't going to be a problem. Once I send in the paperwork from the medical exam I SHOULD be getting my permanent residency (Green Card) in the mail. Then I can get a job and pay everyone back that has been so amazing with us.

The day before our appointment, which is two hours away, our car died. Not just a little death, but a big one. Completely impossible for us to fix. So Charles' Stepfather took us for the appointment. When we got home we got a phone call from Charles' sister who told us that she was going to lend us enough money for the down payment on a car. Amazing woman. I really love her and hope someday we can make her feel as good as she made us feel that day. So we've now got a 2005 Malibu Maxx called Maxine. She is gorgeous!!! It's a dark, metallic blue car but in some lights it appears to be purple. It's a hatchback and it's SHINY!!

lol, you have to forgive me. Our last car was a 1989 Oldsmobile and although she did as good as possible, she wasn't pretty. In fact, I named her Betty after the show Ugly Betty.

I'm sorry, I'm just really proud to be driving something that doesn't look like it should have been retired 10 years ago.