Thursday, June 3, 2010

Giving up

So I did the work, paid the fees and got my GED. I was so proud of myself for finally doing it. But it doesn't seem to have done me a damn bit of good. I have applied EVERYWHERE! I have called and bugged businesses to hire me the way I'm supposed to do. I've applied for jobs that I know I would hate, just so I could have a paycheck coming in. But no one wants me. We need at least $200 just to get through the next couple weeks and we have nothing and no way to get help. I just want to give up. Pack it all in and hope the "next life" is better than this one. I can't do this anymore. Obviously I won't take that route because it would hurt people that I love and I can't do that. But I want to.